yes world!! i have sweaty palms.

ive been trying to hide it.
ive been trying not to talk about it.
cuz i know it will bother u.

and ive been avoiding myself not to hold u directly!


still,

as much as u dont like it, me neither!!

as much as u hate it, i hate it twice as much!!


but what do i get? a sarcastic??

THANX

and my blog turns one

...yesterday

\(^.^)/

sorry blog, i forgot..
it was supposedly be on sept 2nd..



lets see..

yesterday, i went archery with haziq while being watched by bad and aza before canoeing with them late in the evening. and i realize that both activities really need the ultimate strength in the arms~

still, the day was great. i aimed a specific target before shooting but the arrows ended up sticking to other places, and none of them reached the target. hahaha.. and i didnt realize how big the lake could be bila ada atas air. i felt so small, and the people tepi2 tasek pon barely nampak. hehe

ke my eyes yg da x betul??



anyways dear blog, i had a great tym and to u,
have a happy 1st anniversary ^_^

think about me as well

jangan fikir diri sendiri.


skrg, tiada lagi langkah pertama dari saya. saya da penat nangis sbb tiada respon baik yg saya dapat..
sungguh kebudak2kan. tp saya ada hati nak dijaga.

saya akan ikut rentak awak.

awak senyum, saya senyum.
kalo awak bertanya, saya jawab.
awak tegur, saya balas.
kalo awak suka, saya suka.

berkatalah manis2 pada saya, dan saya akan balas kata2 yg sama.

how it started...

skrg pukul 4.58am.
terjaga dari tdo
selepas mengantuk yg teramat tym kelas sir sharif
and after a long walk around metrojaya's warehouse sale with girlfriends, hehe

he wouldnt like going to such places.
noisy, packed and crowded, hours of time spent boringly coz i'll be looking at brg pompuan je dlm tuh, hehe

hm..
the boy.
lets get mushy2 tonite eiyh.
reflecting back the proposal.
the spark.
and how it started..
*gile xmalu ngada2!!!!


the name is haziq.
a friend introduced us, u know.
kebetulan the friend ada hal dgn dia
and kebetulan i have matters regarding the friend.
that was during part 2.
kot.

ok.
so the 1st meeting wasnt as cheeky and romantic
as how cinderella met her prince at the ball.
it was business talk since that day
and along the way.
lagipun i was sumeone else's girl.

he never flirted.
neither did i.
then how could possibly two ppl
who are friends
become lovers?
ntah la..

just one fine evening during the holidays,
a text appeared on my phone.
yes, it was may 10th.
'Hajar, ko single lagi?'
hehe, me n my sister giggled.
ofkos la single.. buat2 tanye plk~
'sy single mingle' i replied.
then he said he consulted his friend regarding me.
and was ready to take me
as a part of his life.

ya ampun, ye ke?
igtkn dia ada kwn nak di-introduce kat kte!
siap consult kwn lg?? mmg teketar tangan tym pegang phone.
'ala akak, amik jela~' my sister cucuk.
amboi senangnye ckp cik adek~
y me? sy x cantek!
'ko nmpk cute bile ko blur' dia kata.
=.=" jwpn ape tuh..
byk ragu2. boleh ke kita bercinta?
kita kn kawan..
'then we know how to have fun' he said.
eh eh.. ade je jwb dia~

then it all bloomed
mcm org bercienta slps kawen, haha
sorry2.
didnt mean to be perv.
the rest, u've seen them for urselves.

so, if your friends ask you
nape x pnh nampak kami bercintan sebelum ni,
*gile mimik pn hamidah. haha, sorry2*
tell it to your friends
it happens after the proposal.
never before.
not even during pikuniku, hehe

ok, ini xde kaitan ngn cite the proposal.

never say never

The Fray

Some things we don't talk about,
Rather do without,
Just hold a smile.
Falling in and out of love,
Ashamed and proud of,
Together all the while.

You can never say never,
While we don't know it,
Time and time again.
Younger now than we were before.
Don't let me go [6x]

Picture,
You're the Queen of everything,
Far as the eye can see,
Under your command.
I will be your guardian,
When all is crumbling,
Steady your hand.

You can never say never,
While we don't know it,
Time, time, and time again.
Younger now than we were before.
Don't let me go [6x]

We're falling apart,
And coming together again and again.
We're crawling apart,
But we fall in together,
Pulling together, together again.
Ooohhh Ahhhhh

Don't let me go [12x]

1st tym dgr kat dlm kete
from fac nk balik umah smlm.
then nmpk ym razin mendengarkan lagu ni
b4 i went to class ptg td.

sah.
i tekad nk carik lagu ni.

igt lagi pada cuti sy yang byk renungan?

segala gundah gulana yg sy alami
telah terlerai.
benar.
sy boleh menarik nafas lega.

sebab mereka. sebab dia.
sebab cerita yang dibuka.

dan kini
sy boleh menerima
seluruhnya.
perfect.
dalam dan luar.

benar.
tuhan maha mendengar.
dia melancarkan
dan permudahkan apa berselirat di hati.
dan sy bersyukur.

ya allah, ampuni aku kerana meragui.
cuma aku x yakin, kerana aku benar2 x nampak
hala ini.
aku berterima kasih, ya allah.
ampuni aku

permata~

datin rosmah mansor kata
ada pepatah pujangga yg menyatakan;

"kalau nak sara diri utk sehari
tanamlah jagung.
kalau nak sara diri utk bertahun2
tanamlah pokok.
kalau nak sara diri utk spanjang idup
bela lah anak2.."

tanda tanya:
mengapakah jagung yg digunakan?
stoberi lebih cantik. ia merah.
tembikai pun sedap. manis.
rambutan..

dan mengapakah anak2 di-compare dgn tanaman?
mcm xboleh je. anak2 x disiram atau dibaja.
anak2 dibelai dan dimanja.
ahaks

tp sy buat2 paham. sebenarnya
saya suka menghadiri majlis konvo rosmah tadi.
saya senang mendengarkan ucapan dia td.
sy xguna earphone pun tym speech dia
atau tym abu shah's
atau mizan's yg ensem oh-jatu-cienta
wpun saya bawak
dan dah bwk kuar dari beg dah.
^_^

dan di dalam speech rosmah tadi
ade sikit sebanyak campur aduk melayu dan english.
cth: "..di peringkat local dan seterusnya ke peringkat international.."
eh?
*boleh eh?
ade agong kot kat sebelah tu~
kalo stakat satu phrase in english

rasanya xpe kot.
ini sebijik je..
aih~

tym dinner sem lepas ktorg kna kutuk
sbb hal campur2 bahasa nih.
got me thinking there.

tp sbb dia rosmah.
siapalah saya utk bangkang. hehe
dan saya suka dia jeling manja kat suami dia ^_^

oh,
speech dia td tidak bertulis,
kalo compare dgn abu shah's or mizan's oh-so-ensem-aih.
hebat kan dia berucap