buat seorang kawan,

saya sayang sama kamu.
kalo boleh, saya mau kita macam dulu.
kita gurau senda
kita bual bicara
dunia ini kita yang punya.

sekian lama kita xberhubung
benar lama.
usah ragu
ku ingat kamu hari2.

takdir menemukan kita semula
kamu kini insan yang tidak ku kenali!
kenapa??

malam tadi kamu buat saya terfikir
banyak benda yang boleh menyebabkan kamu begitu.
salah diriku yang meninggalkan kamu dahulu.
salah diriku yang menukar nombor tanpa memberitahumu.
salah diriku yang tidak bersama denganmu kala dirimu depressed
dan menurut ajakan kawan-kawan lain.
salah diriku yang tidak bersama denganmu, membimbing kamu
dan hanya membiarkan kamu hanyut dalam arus duniawi.

saya sayang sama kamu.
x lama lagi kita masing2 akan kawin.
masing2 punya pasangan sendiri
punya keluarga sendiri
punya anak sendiri.
kawan, fikirla yang terbaik.

untung sape dapat ko, jar. ko baik.
abis, sape2 yang dapat kamu? x untung?
saya yakin kamu bukan dari kelompok itu.
saya tau kamu bukan sebahagian dari kelompok itu.

kamu akan berubah.
kamu janji kan?
janji ya?
demi saya
demi dia.

saya sayang sama kamu.
saya yakin, dia lebih menyayangi kamu.

jangan buat saya sedih lagi.

make each day count.

"I mean, I got everything I need right here with me. I got air in my lungs, a few blank sheets of paper. I mean, I love waking up in the morning not knowing what's gonna happen or, who I'm gonna meet, where I'm gonna wind up. Just the other night I was sleeping under a bridge and now here I am on the grandest ship in the world having champagne with you fine people. I figure life's a gift and I don't intend on wasting it. You don't know what hand you're gonna get dealt next. You learn to take life as it comes at you... to make each day count."

well said, Jack..

i need to recover.

sedang saya menjawab test bel,
phone dlm pocket saya vibrate

jap2, blm siap lg. sabar eyh.

vibrate lagi. berkira2 dlm kepala; ada msg 1, ada call 3...

da submit paper, saya tgk phone.
betul ada 1 msg, 3 miscall.


all are from fahmey


erk
cool, hajar~

dia mintak saya angkat call jap.

saya reply yang saya ada test td. ada apa awak call?

dia reply yang dia happy. dia da abis matrix, kalo ada rezeki nti, dia nak masuk U

tu je ke yang sampai 3 call??

for the first time, saya respond dia dan saya congratulate dia.

dia call again

saya xangkat.

dia call lg

dan lagi...

sigh.. that's it.

saya angkat.
saya tegur dia
yang saya xnak dia call saya lagi.

kenapa? dia tanya.

and i regret saying those words.

sbb saya xnak.
saya mintak maaf, saya letak phone.

dia senyap.
dia x call lagi.

................................

sampai malam
saya terfikir ttg dia.
dia da stopped calling. msg pun da xde. dia ok x?
then saya teringat perasaan saya bila ckp dgn dia camtu.
i regreted?
i shouldnt feel that way. mmg saya da lama xnak dia call saya.
i realized
i miss him so much.
suara itu yang slalu marah saya, suara itu yang slalu pujuk saya.
saya sedar saya da salah kat dia.
what if dia da lupakan yang dulu?
what if dia nak come clean and berkawan mcm biasa?

ahh... tensi2..
luka dalam terparut kembali.

sepanjang malam saya da xbetul.
kawan saya kata saya mcm robot
yang da xde kawalan (or sumthing like that).
saya mintak maaf. saya salah kat kamu sume.
i shouldnt have answered him in the 1st place.

*i need a hug*
ps: thanx for cowie. dia da guling2 merata.
pagi td i found him bawah katil.
^_^"

dear kak azni

adrina tagged me again. (skip all these to the result part pon boleh)

Do the "Letter MEME". Tag no less than 5 other people, and leave them a comment, informing them that they have been tagged.

Then copy the "How-to" Letter Meme, and finish your Journal entry.


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Dear ________ (the last person who left a comment on your blog/journal):

I don't really know how to tell you this, but (1)______. I think I realized it (2)______ (3)______ and I saw you (4)______ (5)______. I'm sure you're (6)______ enough to understand (7)______. I'm returning (8)______ to you, but I'll keep (9)______ as a memory. You should also know that I (10)______ (11)______ .

(12)______,
-Your name-


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Fill in the blanks with choices of answers as below:

1. What's the color of your shirt?
Blue- Our romance is over
Red- Our affair is over
White- I'll join the monastery
Black- I dislike you
Green - Our horoscope doesn't match
Grey - You're a pervert
Yellow - I'm selling myself
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - You're a loser
Other - I'm in love with your sister

2. Which is your birth month?
January - That night
February - Last year
March - When your dwarf bit me
April - When I tripped on sesame seeds
May - First of May
June - When you put cuffs on me
July - When I threw up
August - When I saw the shrunken head
September - When we skinny dipped
October - When I quoted Santa
December - When I changed tennis shoes

3. Which food do you prefer?
Taco - In your apartment
Pizza - In your camping car
Pasta - Outside of Chicago
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad - As you ate enchilada
Chicken - In your closet
Kebab - With Paris Hilton
Fish - In women's clothing
Sandwiches - At the Hare Krishna graduation
Lasagna - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a state of trance
None of the above - With George Bush and his wife

4. What's the colour of your socks?
Yellow - Hit on
Red - Insult
Black - Ignore
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - Put leeches on
Orange - Castrate
Pink - Pull the toupee off
Barefoot - Sit on
Other - Drive out

5. What's the color of your underwear?
Black - My best friend
White - My father
Brown - My fart balloon
Purple - My mustard soufflé
Red - Donald Duck
Blue - My avocado plant(eeww)
Yellow - My penpal in Ghana
Orange - My Kid Rock-collection
Pink - Manchester United's goalkeeper
None - My John F. Kennedy-statue
Other - The crazy monk

6. What do you prefer to watch on TV?
Scrubs - Man
O.C - Emotional
One Tree Hill - Open
Heroes - Frostbitten
Lost - High
House - Scared
Simpsons - Cowardly
The news - Mongolic
Idol - Masochistic
Family Guy - Senile
Top Model - Middle-class

7. Your mood right now?
Happy - How awful
Sad - How boring you are
Bored - That Santa doesn't exist
Angry - That your pimples are at the last stage
Depressed - That we're cousins
Excited - That there is no solution to this
Worried - That your Honda sucks
Apathetic - That I did a sex-change
Ashamed - That I'm allergic to your hamster
Cuddly - That I get turned on by garbage men
Overjoyous - That I'm open
Other - That Extreme Home Makeover sucks

8. What's the color of your walls in your bedroom?
White - Your ring
Yellow - Your love letters
Red - Your Darth Vader-poster
Black - Your tame stone
Blue - The couch cushions
Green - The pictures from LA
Orange - Your false teeth
Brown - Your contact book
Grey - Our matching snoopy-bibs
Purple - Your old lottery coupons
Pink - How awful I've felt

9. The first letter of your first name?
A/B - Your photo
C/D - The oil stocks
E/F - Your neighbour Martin
G/H - My virginity
I/J - The results of your blood-sample
K/L - Your left ear
O/P - My common sense
Q/R - Your mom
S/T - Your collection of butterflies
U/V - Your criminal record
W/X - David's tricot outfits
Y/Z - Your grades from college

10. The last letter in your last name?
A/B - Hate your guts
C/D - Never will forget
E/F - Always wanted to break
I/J - Always have felt dirty before
K/L - Will tell the authorities about
M/N -Told in my confession today about
O/P - Was interviewed by the Times about
Q/R - Told my psychiatrist about
S/T - Get sick when I think of
U/V - Always will try to forget
W/X - Am better off without
Y/Z - Never liked

11. What do you prefer to drink?
Water - Our friendship
Beer - Senility
Soft drink - A new life as a clone
Soda - The incarnation as an eskimo
Milk - The apartment building
Wine - Cocaine abuse
Cider - A passionate interest for mice
Juice - Oprah Winfrey imitations
Mineral water - Embarrassing rash
Hot chocolate - Eggplant-fetishism
Whisky - To ruin the second world war

12. To which country would you prefer to go on a vacation?
Thailand - Warm regards
USA - Best regards
Spain - Go and drown yourself
China - Disgusting regards
Germany - With ease
Japan - Go burn
Greece - Your everlasting enemy
Australia - Greetings to your frog Leonard
Egypt - Fuck off now
France - In pain

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The result:
Dear kak azni (shazni.abdullah - commented on Last Kiss - Pearl Jam)

I don't really know how to tell you this, but You're a pervert. I think I realized it When your dwarf bit me At the mental hospital and I saw you Sit on My John F. Kennedy-statue. I'm sure you're Cowardly enough to understand That there is no solution to this. I'm returning Your ring to you, but I'll keep My virginity as a memory. You should also know that I Told my psychiatrist about Oprah Winfrey imitations.


Go and drown yourself.
hajar.


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*klaka - muahahaha*
ps: my virginity IS well-kept

Seven people I wanna tag:
:: afiqah
:: shaza
:: haziq
:: acad
:: teddy
:: kak azni (u know i heart u. pls dun drown urself, dear ^_^)
:: nyss

pictures of answers

was tagged by adrina. sorry lmbt reply.


The rules are simple.
~Use Google Image to search the answers to the questions below. Then you must choose a picture in the first page of the results, and post it as your answer. After that tag 6 people...


i am:

discovering myself

i really want to go:

my favourite place:

my favourite drink:

my favourite food:

my favourite color:

my favourite show:

my hobbies:

my wishes:

i would like to tag:
[ afiqah ]
[ haziq ]
[ teddy ]
[ shaza ]
[ herne ]
[ afiq shiekh ]

Last Kiss - Pearl Jam

We were out on a date in my daddy's car
We hadn't driven very far
There in the road, straight ahead
A car was stalled, the engine was dead

I couldn't stop, so I swerved to the right
I'll never forget the sound that night
The screamin' tires, the bustin' glass
The painful scream that I heard last

Oh where, oh where, can my baby be?
The Lord took her away from me
She's gone to heaven, so I've got to be good
So I can see my baby when I leave this world




andai kata jalan x licin sbb hujan

andai kata brek xmkn sbb ku tekan

andai kata kete ku ikut arah stereng yang aku pulas


da sure ku 6-feet-under
sbb kete tegolek






cermin signal depan je yg pecah
sbb langgar roundabout





and i thank God cuz i'm here
and am still typing

i'll get that repaired, bapak
i'm sorry

*xmau mkn dah*

setelah shooting madarin tadi di-review


saya da perasann..

anak ibu da gemokk~

huhu,
hajar,jom diet..

startled

i wanted to question, but i know i shouldn't

the answer could be disappointing.
that's why i didnt.

wondering

what if he likes her again?
what if the feeling is still there?
what if he can not let it go?

saya sedih

hi fiqah~

*u can take fiqah away in 14 minutes*

pelanduk dua serupa kot
kn fiqa kan~

peringatan di lain hari

hajar, bila minyak kete da tunjuk tanda E, maknanya kena isi.


bukannya bwk kete sampai kete mati tgh jalan..

^_^"
sape la nye kete kne tolak smlm??

it hurts

YOU do not need to give THAT eyes and THAT words when speaking to a FRIEND, spitting out your bad feelings about somebody else.

esp when that FRIEND asked you out is for you to forget the bad feelings!

tagged

1. Do you think you're HOT?
[haha, tak]

2. Upload gambar kegemaran anda.

[diberi oleh bad]

3. Kenapa anda suka gambar ini?
[gambar ini comel]

4. Bila kali terakhir makan pizza?
[march 29th with me parents.. happy birthday to sofia too]

5. Lagu terakhir yang anda dengar?
[diari hatimu - siti nurhaliza]

6. Apa yang anda sedang buat selain selesaikan tag ini?
[layan chat bad and surfing~]

7. Selain nama sendiri, anda suka dipanggil dengan panggilan apa?
haha, i like my name perfectly enuf. [hajar aisyah]

8. Tag lagi 6 orang. Soalan seterusnya ada kaitan dengan orang yang anda tag!

i) [acad]

ii) [haziq]

iii) [safwan]

iiii) [shaza]

iiiii) [teddy]

iiiiii) [afiq director]

9. Siapa no.1 pada anda?
[kawan tesl saya, kawan drama saya, kawan saya.]

10. Orang no.3 ada hubungan dengan siapa?
[dengan seorang yang dia suka diam2.. *hihi]

11. Kata sesuatu berkenaan orang no. 5?
[nti pegi pakli ajak kite skali ya]

12. Bagaimana dengan no. 4?
[mari kita ke genting.. pls..]

13. Siapa no. 2?
[KAWAN saya]

14. Bagi pesanan pada orang no. 6.
[mlm tu ko buat aku lupa masalah aku..aku suka]

*grand relieve*

dinner went well

thanx to all~

*gelabah here and there*




still,
it was fun..





though i don't really know my definition of fun
cuz my friends tegur supaya i stay calmed~






maybe i frowned
and thought of the flaws that could occur.. haha





there were..

and i couldn't do anything~

didn't realize the frown, i'm sorry








haih~
bestnya da abis..



*siapla korang time postmortem.. haha~*