a lot of things need to be learnt before being a mother

one of them is when i was in this situation.


i was in my cousin's car
on the way back to shah alam
from bukit jelutong.

i chit chatted with her 5-year-old daughter
who is not fluent in Malay
coz kak elin (the cousin) speaks English with her
and with her other 2 children.

then jasmine (the daughter) came up to kak elin
from the back of the seat and asked:
"mummy, why does she know my name?"
i shut myself up.
bad of me for not visiting my cousins often enough,
i said to myself.
their children don't even know me.

random answers were playing in my head.
'jasmine, she's my cousin'
or 'she's ur aunt'
or something like that.

her reply was:
"of course she knows u." she smiled.
"u're my daughter".


much to my surprise, i like that answer.
i really like that answer.
do u know why?
it creates a beautiful bond between a mother and a daughter
and i really like that.

Sue Jasmine and Sue Alina
*jasmine and kak elin*

and yes,
this is the jasmine
who was happy to see her new brother and said
"mummy, jadir's got a tail~" to kak elin.
oh so cute ^_^

dan ingatlah bhw memecah-belahkan sesama kita amat dibenci Tuhan.

sy keluar makan td.
baru tadi.


dan sy menerima panggilan dari dia.
dia yg disayangi semua.
dia yg lovable.


td dia sgt marah

lalu berceritalah dia...

sungguh sy xterkata apa2.
betapa bodoh itu orang.
betapa kejam itu orang.
naseb baek sy x tau sape itu orang.
maunye sy tembak hidup2.
wtf hidup kalo myusahkan orang lain.

sungguh sy terkejut mendengarkan khabar itu.
dan sy harap kamu sabar.
sy rasa, dia yg cantik itu marah
sbb kata2 yg dilemparkan oleh orang kutuk itu.
lalu tempiasnya kena pada kamu..

sy rasa, kamu kna explain kat dia yg cantik itu baik2.
sy tau dia xmau dgr; gv her tym..

ei
kalo aku dpt tau sape ko
mmg beratus kali aku tikam ko.
aku da x kesah ko kwn aku ke x.

like // Jeng

Ben - Michael Jackson

and u say that i am miserable? thanx.

just bcuz u heard things from him
doesnt mean that those things are from me.

u dont even talk to me, fyi.


and dear u,
u let ppl say things abt me??

THANX
i just tot i could rely on u

bila kita nk kuar dating?

i mish u

bila disoal kawan-kawan

apa yg saya akan ubah ttg dia..


terfikir sebentar,
kadang2
ada yg saya x bekenan ttg dia.
kata2 carut dia..
marah dia..
sinis dia..

tp sy x terdaya nk nyatakan
sy pun slalu telepas cakap..
marah sy pun slalu x betempat..

dan sy nampak
betapa dia berusaha utk melawan perasaan itu.
perasaan marah yg berkocak hebat dihatinya.
perasaan yg mungkin sakiti sy
jika diluah dgn kata-kata.

mungkin sy senang dgn cara dia menerima sy..
nothing more is important.



'xde pape pun yg aku nk ubah' itu yg diluah..

*sbb sy sayang awk*

oh, if there IS anything far more important,
i'll let u know later.
just in case..
;-)

yes world!! i have sweaty palms.

ive been trying to hide it.
ive been trying not to talk about it.
cuz i know it will bother u.

and ive been avoiding myself not to hold u directly!


still,

as much as u dont like it, me neither!!

as much as u hate it, i hate it twice as much!!


but what do i get? a sarcastic??

THANX