eye opener, in a different way.

My eyes were drawn to 'Doctorate in Islam' when my housemate came back home with this pamphlet from her university and invited me to this debate.

Doctorate in Islam. Whoa. That's good.

Such title. Even for a Christian. I don't think I could reach that phase. I'm not even a hafizah myself. Good on him!

Then I had a second thought. A Doctorate in Islam.

That must have lots of readings. Years to understand Islam.

But how could one possibly learn soo much about Islam, and is still a Christian?

How could one read soo much Hadiths, memorize Quran
and not see the beauty that the verses have?

The beauty that Islam has?

How could one not see that? And to debate which one is better, whoa. That's pretty brave.

Then I see how lucky I am, how grateful I should be. To be born from an Islamic family. To have Islam since birth. And then I see how precious and mahal His hidayah is for us. For all the mankind in this temporary dunya.

You see, Allah is never cruel to His creations; every man is given akal. And in his case as a Christian, wanting to learn about Islam is a chance that Allah has given to actually see Islam. His hidayah for him. But it looks like he chose to believe the other side. It's not like Allah didn't show him anything; he studies the Quran! The one book that has everything in there, the one book that nothing else can contradict. But he chose to deny what he has read all these years. And I believe that there, right there, Allah gave him what he wanted. Just like that. For that, I truly feel sorry for him. Sorry that he missed, or purposely left out all the truths and still do not see what a great man Muhammad (saw) was.

Subhanallah, You are the all-mighty. Please forgive me. Jesus, our Prophet, was great during his time, and Muhammad was great during his time. Peace be upon them both. But it was a really good debate, nonetheless. The twisted points you had may seem like the answer was a clear cut, but Muhammad was never like how you have perceived him. May Allah bless you, Faraz Nomani for standing up for the Muslims and defending Islam.

the little mission

One fine day.

One very fine day. Amin.

The Greatest Planner

It's an awe when you realize the positive side of everything.

When you realize how close Allah is to you to make sure that you are on track. His track. 

I came to Australia having two things in mind; get a Master certificate, and get away from my past and everyone in Malaysia and build myself back from scratch with new strangers in a new surrounding. Simple. 

And He led me to this lady when I touched down. Very down to earth, modest. And I thought 'oke nice to meet you, hope to see you again' was all it was. But one thing brought to another, it's been several months now. And I know hidayah Allah doesn't come often; it's in a blink of the eye. It's whether I see her in a path He made for me or if it's another friend I met in Australia. And I took the first sign.

And it's so beautiful. It amazes me how easy it is to talk to her, and feel like Allah who is 'talking' back. But don't take it the wrong way. What I mean is, I feel that Allah has actually prepared her for me when I wanted to find myself. That He is taking me back onto His path. Questions that were too afraid to ask before, things that were too embarrassed to talk about before, were answered and shared and opened up to create a better me. 

And for that, I am truly thankful to Him, and for this beautiful ukhwah, and may He bless your tender heart to have accepted me for who I was, for who I am now. 

chub chub cheeks and all over

I'd blame the cold winter,

And the daily nasi Arab with kambing during Ramadhan,

And the midnight consumptions,

For all the marvellous, amazing food

And making me all puffed up.

Now I have to find a way to get back in shape before I head back to Malaysia.

Chubby Hajar. Cheers.

*picture is from WeHeartIt*