tekad

December is the month now.

a.k.a the last month.

a.k.a the end of the year.

there were several things happened last year during this month.

several things that i handled recklessly. very thoughtlessly.

regardless, they all happened.

so quickly, so fast.. i didn't realize they actually did happen.

up until now, i'm constantly pinching myself to remember all of those things.

and now, i know what i should've seen.

i know what i've done before.

after pinching myself, i know what i should've done,

and what i've missed.

three to four months i took to remember and look back.

segala 'should have' perlu dielakkan. tak patut dinilai.

ia sungguh menentang kejadian Yang Maha Mengetahui.

and i took a couple of days to make a decision.

saya tekad.

saya mahu awak memiliki apa yang saya mahu bagi. sbb saya rasa awak akan sukakannya. saya suka jika awak memilikinya. sbb ia memberi makna yang baik pada kita berdua jika awak memilikinya. i hope you will like it.

ada several lagi.. tp this will do :)