a son and his mother

yes. the son mentioned above is a friend of mine.

it surprises me how his mother gave a shocking statement to him, about me.

and from there, i realized how selfish people still exist.

but they say being in someone's shoes can help to understand their hard situation. i guess my shoes are big. big enuf for you to understand that they cost you more than one person to fit them.

my whole journey here got me worried every single day. sampai hati cakap mcm tu. i am freakin scared to be exact! would you like to explain things to my parents if something goes wrong? would you like to cover my expenses? did you think you are making the situation normal again by saying that? did you even think about calming me down by saying that?

and you are a parent, for crying out loud!

and dear son. i thought i had your word about this.

smpai hati tak stood up for me.

me? why only now do i have to start talking to him?? hv i not try that before?

yet not one msg replied. not one ym replied.

call? haram.

I am done doing what i've done. dia lupa sape suap dia mkn sblm ni.

my Form6 students suka games rupanya

well, the plan was to get them chillax after submitting the essay last week.

so i prepared them a game.

yea, the infamous charade. never gets old. haha

and all of them were on top of their lungs

guessing and describing.

and my speaking class worked!

*terharu*

terasa di hujung dunia bila mahu putus asa dan memikirkan mereka

yg segan nak cakap English.

and at the end of the class, one student came up to me and asked

"teacher, tumoro kita main game lagi nak?"

yeahh.. of course!

but i kept my cool, and said "we'll see"

:D

ok. so i havent update my blog for a while.

am here. reading others, and try to inspire myself to write as well.

but written nothing.

however, i want to share this line of a song i heard.

not so new now. yet is still played in the radio.

"and no matter where i'm at

girl, you make me wanna sing.

whether a bus or a plane or a car or a train.

no other girls on my brain

and you're the one to blame."

Nothing on You - B.O.B

oh terasa lesbian.

er.. well *ehem*

the point is, sy terasa mahu kembali ke zaman dahulu.

er, x nampak kaitan? xpela.

terkini #1: saya kini ber-braces. next appointment is on august kasi ketat. food? anything yg lembut still. saya x larat nak kunyah mknn keras2 mcm chicken chop pakli, zinger kfc, spicy delux mcd. hari2 safwan swoh makan bubur. takut besi bengkok katanya. ps: bubur x kenyang. sikit pun x. hari2 mcm ni, boleh mendatangkan underweight.

terkini #2: saya prac di Kapar, Klang. skola notty tahap gaban. mengaja sivik Form3, english Form4 dan muet Form6.

terkini #3: observation pertama dah buat pagi tadi (isnin 10.10-10.40 am) markah cantik dan saya hepi. observation kedua? minggu depan. by ramadhan, semua observation habis. ini kalah movie backtoback.

terkini yang paling: saya masih mencari jalan untuk men-tackle hati mainmain Form6. walaupun markah cantik from observation, saya rasa masih banyak improvement perlu buat. Form4? makin hari, semakin sayang mereka. rupanya mereka suka purple. mereka suka saya. dan semakin hari, semakin banyak homework yg mereka siapkan. dan saya hepi.

ini sude terbalik dgn acad. student Form6 rapat dgn acad. tp acad banyak komplen psl budakbudak Form4 nya. seb baik pn rohaya understanding. markah acad pun cantik. xpe acad. if you can find ways to amik hati the Form6, im sure you wont have much prob in handling the Form4 students. acad laki, lagipun. ur voice lantang, im sure they listen to you.

kte nii~

and students! Sir Arshad and I are not a couple.

(tetibe baru sedar yg acad suka merah. byk baju kami kelihatan sedondon)

after many months,

er, well.. since that day,

i've got many questions in my head.

that's why i've been asking ppl here and there.

and everywhere.

and they gave me lots of perspectives.

different perspectives.

questions to him are unanswered, of course.

should i thank him too?

hmm..

he is the one who brings out the me now.

or maybe he is the one who

shoves the me deep inside.

*hoh, another question la plak*

so i guess i should.

thank you. and to others.

okies.

er.. who am i now?

*cengkerik cengkerik*

and hair, u are staying. definitely.

currently im thinking of cutting my hair short.

sometimes the need to start anew urges me to do so.

er.. until then, i like to keep what i have now.

mode :

~:: wedding ::~

our eldest cousin got married recently. that was why i was away.

and OMG her wedding had the same theme colour as mine (well in my mind) :P

red and white on my side.

and (i was thinking that PROBABLY) blue and white on the groom's side.

so, red and blue.

awww...

but she had them anyway.

and it was beautiful~ just as i imagined :)

so here i am. googling thru some pics for our wedding.

well,

i mean..

oh u get what i mean.

not that i have somebody next to me, hehe.

this is not part of the planning :)

nauzubillah

*can i just stick to my wedding fantasy?

plagiarism, is it?