that feeling.

when i can turn to partner
and smile "ini suami saya".

that time will come. insyaAllah. aminn.

some things remain

Right Here Waiting - Richard Marx (live 2006)

YouTube

i was reminiscing the times 

my family and i had in New Castle. 

my dad had the song played over and over and over again, 

when we were wandering around London in the sweet red ride he rented. 

this song was first released way back in 1989, 

but give this vid a go. 

seems like he still has that voice, 

that one voice i once fell in love with when i was 6. 

video was via Cik Pinkora's  

"aisya, baju kita serupa la! kita da boleh bersanding." 

a post that was never here.

i meant to write a post

about rumet and how i missed her so very much badly.

about rumet and how i missed listening to her fav oldie songs from her laptop.

about rumet and how i missed watching her play comp games when she's putting aside AE.

about rumet and how i missed the romantic movies we watched together.

about rumet and how i missed the endless outgoings around shalam.

little did i know

she misses me just as bad.

she prayed so that we could meet.

how do i know all of that? 

we met yesterday.

after a year since we left the rent house. 

no. it was never planned. or expected.

Allah knew better.

i never knew komuter is her thang now. haha.

yes, we met at Midvalley komuter station

just after i bid sad farewell to shaza and haziq.

we started talking, driving around seremban and paroi jaya.

so no. now i don't have to write a post

about how much i miss her.

oh.

that's just too ironic. 

hakikatnya, sy kangan. 



shaza and haziq, they are in the hall now, waiting anxiously for their turn of becoming TESL graduates. after 5 years and half of journey, congrats loves! and welcome to the working world.

i could hv been there. sobs. sorry ;(

http://denakamarulbahrin.blogspot.com/2012_05_01_archive.html

i don't know the writer.

a friend's friend, i should say.

but i am very very proud of her. million congrats.

whenever i'm at cross-roads,

i will read this. chayok hajar.

tiba2 terdengar din panggil sayang.
tiba2.
aish.
dy pun x sengaja kot.

readers, don't mind me rambling :)

not just any ramble.

me being me. 

a heart-felt one.

a gratitude.

yes, only Allah knows how thankful i am these past few days.

i can't even share it with ibu. nor with girlfriends.

at least not verbally or face-to-face.

these things don't really come easy. 

so i let it out here. 

2010 was the roughest year i had to go thru.

i don't even know if girlfriends could see it. 

i was head over heels for him, pretty obvious that year before.

he was all i see.

having that lost, i lost myself as well.

i missed him smiling to me.

i missed talking to him.

i missed going out with him.

i missed seeing him laughing and be happy.

u see, i missed everything related to him.

everything. 

i was too afraid to look at him,

to look at his hatred towards me.

to look at his anger.

his silence killed me. day by day.

being so close, yet so far. 

i prayed everyday that things could run smooth,

and that i was strong enough to face the days. to face him. 

things have changed now.

the better change. 

i don't know if i still fall for him.

but i do like what i have now. 

where i am now.

far, yet close. 


tanak far. bole x?

whyy am i rambling in the morning? haiyaa