pre #4

you are coming with me.

leggo!

my fear

When I was a little girl, I've always wanted to be married to a man like my dad.

Firm. Loyal. Family-first man.

That was what I see in him back then.

When I was a teenager, I've always reminded myself not to find a man with certain characters like dad's.

Cold. Distant. Hot-tempered.

*guilty as charged* That was how I see him back then.

You see, becoming a young lady myself now, I see that I am supposed to possess 'lady' characters.

Gentle. Polite. Good with words.

And good gracious, I don't have any of those characters!

I notice that I am becoming more like how father used to be than I wanted to. Rough. Distant and cold. I can hardly accept people's words. I am ... ... distant.

In many ways, it benefits me a lot. It actually makes me feel good. It gives that relief because I have marked my point. That's it. Few minutes after, I realize that people are not smiling anymore. And the more I realize that it's not good for them in any way.

I knew how they feel 15 years ago. I didn't like it then, I don't like it now. And I don't want to be like that. And if I don't want to see it from other people, why am I becoming one?

chin up. keep your cool.

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comel adha bahasakan 'ibu' :)

pre #3

amin.

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pre #2

"Kakak nanti bawak balik package; 

Master dengan abg ipar." 

habaq Sofia pada maklong.

"Uihh. Pegi sorang, balik berdua." 

Aminn to good learning and great success. 

Aminn to a responsible abg ipar for adik2.
Responsible and cool suami for me :)

pertama kali

MYOB

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Tak pernah sehebat ini perasaannya.

Rasa semangat "Yes, I can do this. No problem."

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Rasa pegi mampos kaw. 

lantak kaw. 

Biadap sungguh. Bongok.

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Rasa jiwa yang kosong.

Tak patut rasanya

Tapi rasa jiwa yang tenang.

Rasa mcm boleh yakin dgn perasaan ini kali ini.

No, saya takesah

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